Ok, this is just a quick one! (mainly for my grandma, because I know that she is going to be looking for a blog from me today haha)
I am absolutely DETERMINED to get done with school as quickly as possible! I have spent the last hour (I have a two hour break until my last class for the day) going back and forth, trying to figure out if it is even possible that I can finish a little bit early. Guess what?! I think it is possible!!! I am going to talk with my advisor soon to see what her thoughts are on the subject, but I am very optimistic for now.
I miss Kittson County. More specifically, I miss my little towns of Orleans and Lancaster. I know everyone says that I need to cherish these years and appreciate what I have now, but to be quite frank, I'm ready to be a full blown grown-up now. I'm ready to have a job that I am responsible for, money to keep track of, bills that need to be paid, and for what little college debt (I am so thankful for this!) I have to be paid off.
Some will think that I am crazy, but I just like to think that I am ready for what the world has to throw my way. High school was the time of my life. College in the city where I'm a complete stranger to nearly everyone is not the lifestyle I enjoy. Will I put up with it for now? Heck yes! Without my education, I am not as useful as someone with a degree to businesses or employers. I am fully aware of this fact. Although, it does sadden me though that so much of our lives revolve around money. Either receiving, spending, or saving it, too much emphasis is placed upon it in my eyes.
I think that there are more important things in life. Call me old fashioned, but I believe in raising your own children, rather than sending them to a daycare for 9 out of 24 hours each day. I believe in children attending school with their friends and building relationships that will last a lifetime. I believe in husbands and wives working together to make things work even better when times get tough. I believe in work, whether it be house work, homework, outside work, etc. It builds character. I believe in small towns and the camaraderie and spirit that lives within each one. I believe in life out in the country, the sound of quiet, and the stars shining brightly at night. I believe that God has a plan for each and every one of us and that my plan isn't the one that so many wanted for me. "Get out of here!" "Go do something with your life!" "You can always come back years down the road. Kittson County isn't going anywhere." "There is nothing here for you."
My thought on the last couple phrases is, if Kittson County is so bad, why do you live here still? Maybe YOU want to advance your life or come back years down the road, but that has never been my dream. My dream is to raise a family someday the same way that I was raised. I knew that I could come back whenever I wanted to and not be judged. My family actually encouraged it and I will be forever grateful of that. Kittson County is my home.....and I don't just believe that, I know. :)
Megan you are a very gifted writer. Your honesty and willingness to say it how you see it is honestly refreshing. I don't often hear much of that in Kittson County, and I myself wish I was as bold. But there is also a fine line of when we know and when we think we know. When we are right and when we are being self-righteous. When we are saint and when we are sinner, do you know what I mean?
ReplyDeleteEither way, it is really not my place to judge and I honestly think it is not yours either. God is the judge, and we just get on our stubborn Knees and beg and plead that we humbly and boldly speak the truth with love. I hear your love for Kittson county and for your family. I hear your truth and I pray you keep preaching it girl, hopefully God will keep using you to inspire others. We need more bold preachers in Kittson county :)